Friday, September 08, 2006 9/08/2006 08:51:00 PM
it is tough..
more than a mth has passed. still going through and hanging on. looking on the brighter side, it was not as difficult as the initial period. having crawled thus far, i will still continue to pick myself up as i move on.haven't been in any mood today. no mood to talk, no mood to do tuts...my mind seems to be occupied by a lot of things. things that i couldn't mention or discuss freely with anyone. i have been thinking a lot. thinking about other things, not thinking abt what she thought i was. mostly nonsense i think, mostly things that are so unlikely to happen. sighz.. think i'm still reliant on her. i know i need to stand up myself but it isn't as easy as it seems. told myself i shldn't depend on her too much. but sometimes i can't bring myself to do so.seeing you just gives me contradictory feelings.zixin, at most times i feel i could talk to you more abt what i once told you. it's tough having to go through it. hmmm...
