Friday, March 17, 2006 3/17/2006 01:21:00 PM
it stays
after maybe 2 wks, that moody feeling still lingers... to make things worse, i erm (shld i say it here)...yes i failed my maths test! anyway nobody is gonna bother so why shld i hestitate mentioning? i shldn't be complaining i know, but nobody is thinking tt tt test is easy at all and guess wat prof toh said? "this test is too easy right? now i know the standard you guys have, the final exam won't be tt easy of course..." freaking *(&($^@*it's all my fault but i don't need to hear stuff like "who ask you don't study harder?" like as if you all know what i'm going through...ok, it's all excuses...whatever!! i shldn't ponder abt it and move on but it's not easy as it is. being sad and demoralized, i had to surpress all of it and prepare for another test the next day. sighz...it's a sure damn torture not being able to express your feelings.i just hate it when people tell me "aiyo, die liao. this test sure fail..." the test is just over, excuse me? and we all know when the results are out, you'll sure get the highest lor... all these reminds me of k***y k**h.... sometimes i can't help thinking, you can't really expect very truthful friends as you grow older. friends made as one ages aren't as simple as friends made when one is younger. am i walking the wrong path? it all seems so..nothing is smooth. either this is the wrong direction i'm taking or it's the right one with too many humps in it. God, i seeked You abt this 2 yrs back. there wasn't really any reply or confirmation frm You. someone once told me tt You can respond in many ways. sometimes You may not reply, just make things work in a certain way. i thought this is the path You've chosen for me but here i am seeking You again, Father..i really want to know if this path is actually Your will for me or it's just what i subconsiously thought it is Your will for me. speak to me dear Father, in any way or through anyone. if it's indeed the wrong path i'm walking, guide and help me back to the right track. teach me how to work things out. Amen!
