Thursday, December 15, 2005 12/15/2005 11:12:00 PM
beginning: fun day...end: my world crashed
today was supposed to be quite an enjoyable day..1st outing dim sum-ing with the girls, like tai-tais having high tea dim sum buffet.reached home seeing this letter...making all my numb feelings resurfaced again..you've made a decision back then. why can't you be responsible for the circumstances resulting frm this choice you've made?can you just spare us frm all this shit tt you've caused?haven't you make us suffer enough?if you're really tt caring and responsible, then how come we're actually leading such lives?are we so unworthy till you had to put our lives in danger?a wrong step tt you've took,made and now others are throwing their anger on us.what have we done to deserve this? my character now is moulded as a result of your choice.i don't know if i shld actually thank you or blame you....teeth-griting, self-determined, ability to hold on to life very tightly no matter what befalls on me.been through tough times and survived through very much on my own. selfish, closed up, behaving not very much like a girl.even autistic at some times.growing hasn't been easy, it's not what people would wished for.you've crashed our world and what do you really want now again?!?spare me pls, spare us.......i'm supposed to be having a talk with him tmr.or shld i?words said can nv be taken back always.when harm is done, there's no amt of cure.maybe this talk shld be made when i'm back.why is this happening to me all the time?
