Saturday, July 16, 2005 7/16/2005 10:55:00 PM
"fattening" day? retail therapy. little thoughts.
went out with xinyan today. finally man..after so long. the last time we met was don't-know-when. thanks for the stuff, girl. don't know if i shld actually mention it here. it's very cool. ate sushi buffet till i'm so bloated. untill now as i'm typing. did some retail therapy, got 2 new tops. i like the one frm gio junior especially, the logo very cute. don't know if i'm into yellow clothing, i don't think so but i've got 2 new yellow tops recently. hmmm...nxt stop, cwp. wait for lyly to finish work. ok, i was very early till i waited so long. it seems fun to work at her workplace but the pay and the things you have to do there like very pathetic. wasn't really into walking ard, cwp too many pple and we're just lazy. i actually had dinner even after tt oh-so-full lunch! had some talk with her. just some of my thoughts... comparing to erene and eunice, i would think "why mine can't be like their's?". comparing to xinyan and lyly, i would feel "luckily mine is not like their's".i don't know if i'm considered lucky or unlucky. in some ways, i'm thankful for the way she is. meanwhile in other ways, i'm complaining of the way she is.sometimes when she makes me pissed, i just wanna stay out when she's home. i wanna purposely do stuff tt makes her angry. i don't wanna talk to her at all, don't wanna talk anything abt my life to her. i don't wanna link her to my life. but then, especially when i got so angry at work, i would just start complaining to her. i don't want to initially but i just can't help it. i can tell she's really listening and tt's what i needed. i can tell she's not just entertaining me and giving easy comments. i guess i can't really cut her out frm my life? i have thoughts tt are bad, according to lyly. i don't know, girl. i don't know why i would have such thoughts sometimes. i don't usually have such thoughts when i'm angry.i actually dreamt of zixin. weird but i guess i've been thinking abt her too much? don't be touched if you're reading this, girl. haahaa...
