Sunday, June 05, 2005 6/05/2005 10:05:00 PM
you don't understand
you know i'm not very happy with my job. everytime i tell you abt my feelings at work, you'll say 'quit lor..you can always find another job.' that's not i want to hear. what's worse, sometimes out of the blue, you'll ask me 'when are you gonna ask for a transfer? when are you gonna ask to quit?'
i know it's my fault because i don't explain to you fully why i still wanna stay on there. i've tried to explain to you part of the reasons why i don't wanna leave yet but your reactions show me that you don't understand at all. that's why i don't wanna explain to you all my reasons for staying.
i know whatever you said, you meant well. but in some ways, i feel you're not being rational. i hope i could use the phrase 'blessing in disguise'. i'm pissed whenever you mention quitting. i'm boiling inside, i feel like screaming at you. i can't however. it's not fair to you. i know if i really start screaming at you abt this issue, it'll be like a extremely huge wedge driving between us and i can't afford to let it happen.
can you let me decide when i should bring up the matter? don't pester me abt it. i'm not gonna quit now. you don't understand but i really hope you do though. i'm confused, fustrated. :(
