Tuesday, June 07, 2005 6/07/2005 11:39:00 AM
you don't understand again
i was talking to you yesterday night. again, you asked me 'did you ask?'. i know what are you getting at but i pretended not to know. why? cos i don't want to start blasting. i can't talk to you abt my work so don't ask me anymore. i'm really afraid one day i'll blast at you. i hope it doesn't happen but i don't know how long more can i control myself. i'm starting to see the differences in the 2 of us. i hope it doesn't affect anything between us though. everything that i don't like, you're making it worse by telling me how really bad it is. my workplace is bad, my sch is bad, blah blah. can you stop rubbing into it? you're making me avoid you, making me not even want to hear your voice at all. all because i don't want to start quarreling. i know you're sensing a bit of it but you don't seem to give a damn abt it. when i was on the way home yesterday night, laura called me. we talked abt bgr. sighz. sometimes i wonder if being rational and practical is a virtue or not.
