Friday, March 04, 2005 3/04/2005 08:31:00 PM
what is gonna be my nxt step?
had been talking to xinyan these few days...hating the system in nus, dislikes the prc tutor who seem impatient to even stay back and ans our qns and a lot more.majorin in applied mathematics, i don't know what can i work as and so i wonder abt my future.it's getting more and more difficult.am i really disliking this major? i don't know.ever thought of changing fac. but the event is closed already and according to vivien, if we change fac after yr 1, the government is not gonna subsidise our sch fees.but even if the event is still on, which fac could i change to? arts? biz? engin? design?arts, engin and desgin are a sure no-no. so the choice is biz.since i hate the nus system of doing things, makes no diff whether i stay in sci or transfer to biz right?xinyan said, "come ntu and join us all lar..."don't tempt me girl.i know i'm a lonely soul in nus, all of you are there.but now that she mention it, i'm considering this choice.what am i gonna do there? i can only think of biz.however, i got lots of liabilities to be responsible for if i were to really leave nus.how will my mum react if i decide to switch? will she support my decision? or will she blame me for not making up my mind, for wasting time and money?monetary problems seem to pop up recently. if i go over, will my modules here be able to carry over there? it seems unlikely though it's based on case-by-case.if it can't be carried over, i'll be wasting 1 yr. wasting $8,200+. wasting all those money spent on books. wasting all other things.last resort, i may change my major.nothing much will be involved.so that's probably the safest choice.xinyan mentioned, "business can learn elsewhere, not necessary to learn in uni"i totally agree. then now how?i'm really lost.feel like i'm studying for the sake of studying. and it's a terrible feeling. there's no joy.God, open my heart and ears. speak to me. You are my shepherd.tell me what is Your plan for me. guide me and lead me there. Amen.
