Saturday, February 05, 2005 2/05/2005 02:56:00 AM
some updates of me
sighz..i haven been bloggin for a long time again..haahaa
kinda sick with sch life. everything keep piling up, it's getting higher and higher. it seems like i can't clear this ever-piling stack. why?!? argh...readings, assignments, tutorials, datelines!!
my advanced calculus mod is suffering now, don't understand 2 chapters already. so is my business law mod, i seem to drift away as i start reading the additional readings..financial accounting is getting difficult, starting to get lost during lectures.
i'm so angry with myself whenever i fall asleep in lectures. i can nv keep myself awake, think partially cos i slp late at night but what can i do? not as if i don't want to slp early..i can nv understand why vivien and shin rong nv, realli NV, fall asleep. at most, they'll only stone. why me??? i want do well, better than last semester but what is happening to me during lectures pisses me off..
this coming wed is chinese new yr..well, not feeling much. every yr feels the same. this yr, cny eve gotta study, got class. there's a remedial lesson in the morning then lecture till 4pm. sighz. actually planned to go back pj but now, i don't know which to choose. i want to go back but i want to go for the remedial too. i shld relax but i can't. i suck in tt mod, can't even do the tutorials, not even a qns, i need the remedial. i don't want "fly" xinyan's aeroplane. i want go back and see teachers, see who i'll bump into there. cos i miss them all. i miss the fun times then. i know, by logic, i shld go for the remedial..but let me think k..
meetings are getting shorter with him. compared to last time, i mean. once a wk is the norm but the time together is shorter than last time. we used to spend at least 1/2 a day every wk, but now 1/4 day per wk. fortunately, it's still quality time spent and tt is all tt matters. i don't and i'm not complaining here, just comparing only. it's not anybody's fault, or anybody's problem. just wondering why it seem tt i had more time last time, but now 1 day to me seem less than 24 hrs. how i wish time could stretch, slow down whenever i'm with him.
