Monday, December 20, 2004 12/20/2004 12:13:00 PM
just some thots/feelings
lately everybody seem to been havin serious thots..lyly's been thinkin of courtship, virgin, spinster...micky's (1 of the supervisors @ work) been thinkin of continue studyin, he's 32 already...jannah's been thinkin of lookin for a job either at the bank or join 1 of the budget airlines as an air stewardess..hmmm...somehow it sets me into the thinkin mode too...
i was havin my lunch yesterday at work...micky told me tt when he first saw me, he thot i wasn't local..OMG!! i look like a foreigner meh..he thot i was a malaysian...haahaa...i'm not!! i'm geniunely born and breed locally...
i really enjoyed talkin to micky (don't be mistaken k?)..his words makes a lot of sense to me always....he asked me what i'm studyin now and when i told him i'm studyin maths, he asked what i want to work as after i graduate..seriously, i still don't know, i really really don't know..he was kinda stunned when he heard my reply.."how can you not know what you wanna?" he said...
somehow every chat session made me wonder what is gonna happen after i graduate, what i'm gonna do, what will happen to my future and a lot more...other than being a teacher, i don't see yet what else can somebody, who is studyin maths, can do in the future...maybe i'm still new in the course, i haven't been able to see the future, the light down this path tt i'm takin, this path tt i've chosen..it makes me start thinkin but i can't seem to decide at all, i can't seem to come to a decision after thinkin so long, so much....and it's fustrating
i was talkin to wahidah the other day too..she just completed her 'N' levels..i asked her what is she plannin to do after this stage...."i don't know, maybe go on to ITE and study", she said...."it's ok with me, age doesn't matter, i don't bother even if it means goin on to poly at a age different frm the others", she continued...
what she said is true, we live for ourselves and shouldn't let what others think affect us..but i guess we're all so pressured by goin ahead...if we fall behind others even by a little, poeple will somehow look down on us...this has made our society become so stressful..as a kid, frm studyin, till an adult, workin....is this gd? it makes our economy grow, our country prosper but it sacrifices the citizens' life and health, both physically and mentally..
